When Nothing Goes Right Go Left

“Life isn’t about finding yourself. Life’s about creating yourself." – Emerson

I thought I’d post the recipe for my new favorite thing.
it’s kind of like a giant pancake. Depending on how sweet you want it, you can adjust the sugar. I have also sweetened it with Stevia so its sugar free!
1: preheat oven to 180 C
OPTION if you want to have fruit cook on top, skip step 2 and 3 and just sprinkle the fruit over the batter before it goes in the oven.
2: in a pan that can also go in oven, melt a tablespoon or two of butter/ghee with a dash of sugar. 
3: put slices of your fruit of choice (apple, pear, apricot, plum, nectarine, oranges, grapefruit, blueberries etc) in the pan and cook on medium heat for a few minutes. 
4: mix 2 tablespoons of butter/ghee

3=4 tablespoons of butter/ghee
60-100 grams of sugar (or honey)
1 egg
90 grams of flour (half and half combination with any of the following - white, whole wheat, buckwheat, quinoa etc)
3 teaspoons of baking powder
1/2 cup milk (I like using buttermilk)
flavoring (vanilla bean or almond extract)
optional - a nice dash of shredded coconut

4: pour batter in the baking dish and put in the oven
5: bake until light brown on the top, and if you insert a knife it comes out clean. about 30 minutes (less if you do it on higher heat

yummmy and easy!


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Premiere of Stijn Celis’s Romeo and Juliet today!
I was doodling an abstract face, then it went on into a body. I’m a bit uncomfortable with the result. That must be a good thing?
How is it one can be so terrified of living in ones energy and light. How can it feel safer to pile it with lampshade after lampshade. Terrified of the reaction to what lays underneath. But if it is hidden, that light will disappear, cease to exist. Can anything be worse? Pouring yourself out into the world can in the end only strengthen. So why does it prove so difficult?




Since we popped our clocks forward an hour I am finding that my sleep is so deep. It may be that I am unconsciously getting in that last of the winter sleep before spring energy arrives on March 21st. Or my internal clock has just not caught up.

Did you know that what side you sleep on is…

Sunday readings

Today I’ve been reading through some Baudelaire in my quest to study modernism and post modernism. This in particular resonated with me. The duality, or multiplicity of life and art. Both in the original and English below

3. Le ‘Confiteor’ de l’Artiste

    Que les fins de journées d’automne sont pénétrantes!  Ah! pénétrantes jusqu’à la douleur! car il est de certaines sensations délicieuses dont le vague n’exclut pas l’intensité; et il n’est pas de pointe plus acérée que celle de l’Infini!

    Grand délice que celui de noyer son regard dans l’immensité du ciel et de la mer!  Solitude, silence, incomparable chasteté de l’azur! une petite voile frissonnante à l’horizon, et qui par sa petitesse et son isolement imite mon irrémédiable existence, mélodie monotone de la houle, toutes ces choses pensent par moi, ou je pense par elles (car dans la grandeur de la rêverie, le moi se perd vite!); elles pensent, dis-je, mais musicalement et pittoresquement, sans arguties, sans syllogismes, sans séductions.

    Toutefois, ces pensées, qu’elles sortent de moi ou s’élancent des choses, deviennent bientôt trop intenses.  L’énergie dans la volupté crée un malaise et une souffrance positive.  Mes nerfs trop tendus ne donnent plus que des vibrations criardes et douloureuses.

    Et maintenant la profondeur du ciel me consterne; sa limpidité m’exaspère.  L’insensibilité de la mer, l’immuabilité du spectacle, me révoltent …  Ah! faut-il éternellement souffrir, ou fuir éternellement le beau?  Nature, enchanteresse sans pitié, rivale toujours victorieuse, laisse-moi!  Cesse de tenter mes désirs et mon orgueil!  L’étude du beau est un duel où l’artiste crie de frayeur avant d’être vaincu.

3. The Artist’s ‘Confiteor’*

    How penetrating are the ends of autumn days!  Ah!  So penetrating as to be almost painful.  For there are certain delicious sensations whose vagueness does not exclude intensity; and there is no knife’s point sharper than Infinity’s!

    What a great delight to drown one’s gaze in the immensity of the sky and the sea!  Solitude, silence, incomparable chastity of azure!  A little sail shivering on the horizon, and which, in its tininess and its isolation imitates my irremediable existence, monotonous melody of the swell of the waves, all of these things think through me, or I think through them (for in the vastness of reverie, the “I” quickly loses itself!); they think, I say, but musically and pictorially, without quibbles, with syllogisms, without seductions.

    Yet, these thoughts, whether they come out of me or surge forth from things, quickly become too intense.  When energy combines with sensual delight, it causes discomfort and a distinct suffering.  My too strained nerves no longer produce anything but clamorous and painful vibrations.

    And now the deepness of the sky dismays me; its limpidity exasperates me.  The insensibility of the sea, the immutability of the scene revolt me …  Ah!  Must one suffer eternally or eternally flee beauty?  Nature, pitiless enchantress, always victorious rival, leave me!  Stop tempting my desires and my pride!  The study of beauty is a duel in which the artist screams with fear before being vanquished.

Bread without flour - from My New Roots

The Life-Changing Loaf of Bread
Makes 1 loaf

1 cup / 135g sunflower seeds
½ cup / 90g flax seeds
½ cup / 65g hazelnuts or almonds
1 ½ cups / 145g rolled oats
2 Tbsp. chia seeds
4 Tbsp. psyllium seed husks (3 Tbsp. if using psyllium husk powder)
1 tsp. fine grain sea salt (add ½ tsp. if using coarse salt)
1 Tbsp. maple syrup (for sugar-free diets, use a pinch of stevia)
3 Tbsp. melted coconut oil or ghee
1 ½ cups / 350ml water

1. In a flexible, silicon loaf pan combine all dry ingredients, stirring well. Whisk maple syrup, oil and water together in a measuring cup. Add this to the dry ingredients and mix very well until everything is completely soaked and dough becomes very thick (if the dough is too thick to stir, add one or two teaspoons of water until the dough is manageable). Smooth out the top with the back of a spoon. Let sit out on the counter for at least 2 hours, or all day or overnight. To ensure the dough is ready, it should retain its shape even when you pull the sides of the loaf pan away from it it.
2. Preheat oven to 350°F / 175°C.
3. Place loaf pan in the oven on the middle rack, and bake for 20 minutes. Remove bread from loaf pan, place it upside down directly on the rack and bake for another 30-40 minutes. Bread is done when it sounds hollow when tapped. Let cool completely before slicing (difficult, but important).
4. Store bread in a tightly sealed container for up to five days. Freezes well too – slice before freezing for quick and easy toast!


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Poem of the morning


The Sceptre of my ills

the spine of my form.


Quaking in its stillness

Wrenching when bent.


Endless battle waged

against the wafting cloud of delights


Stillness found in their writhing

fear and loss in their stillness.


Conflict suppurated through passivity

calm in coalesced violence



As I prepare for the first day of work in the new year, I was taking a look at famous resolutions, or to do lists in history. I found Benjamin Franklin’s quite appealing, so here it is. Happy New Year everyone! May we all have resolutions like the following…